I've capped that bottle

I've been thinking a lot lately.  Yep.  I do that.  Save the applause, peoples. For those of you who know me, I live a lot in my head. And oh my wordy, Lordy does it get way noisy in there especially if there is creativity or decision-making going on.  Sometimes however, what's going on in my head will show on my face and it's not unusual for me to giggle or grunt, have my lip curl or huff and puff. Recently however, I experienced one of those 'reality check' moments. It just so happened to be the last of three 'think-worthy' incidents that had given me three good hard slaps to the head that I actually woke up to it!  It was after the last slap and the 'think' that ensued that I had an epiphany.  It involved a lot of lip curling and huffing and puffing but eventually I made a decision.

I'll not go into details or mention any particulars of the deal-breaking incident but I can say that after I'd cried then picked myself up and dusted myself off I was able to see it for what it was, bottle it, label it and then shelve it.  And it was as if the sky had cleared and I was able to see how blindly optimistic I had been for many years and how bright my future actually is. 

It's not easy shelving something that has been a constant in your life for half your life but if it's influence is undermining and effacing your confidence or even hurting you, eventually you have to shelve it.  

It is LIBERATING!!!! 

This pic is from a shoot I did almost a year ago.  An amazing couple whom I have known for a couple of decades and the genuine affection and respect they show for each other leaves me feeling warm and fuzzy.  Incidentally, she gives an amazing hair cut.  I should know... ; )

Comments

[Kathleen Glossop]

You're a strong, gorgeous, genuine person Lynette, I can speculate as to the decision uv made, I'm glad you've made it & it's wonderful to hear you're happy :) *hugs* xx

[Pam]

Good for you! Glad to hear you are happy but then I didn't know you weren't, you have always seemed so happy to me! :)

[Debbie]

:-)
miss you

[Melinda K]

Lots of luck and hugs for you Lynette! I think my little mind has read between the lines but then again I could be all wrong.

[Haggith]

you go girl!!! You're one hell of a strong woman! Sterkte is what we say in Dutch, meaning "Strength"!!! big hugs!

[georgia]

I'm so happy the sky has cleared Lynette. Epiphanies can be a lot of work but you are such an amazing and strong lady I am sure you will come out the other end even stronger. Remember there are a lot of people who care about you (and who owe you a few therapy sessions lol). G xx

[Lynette van Barrelo]

Hahaha Georgia!!! I giggle every time I think about that night and the mass therapy session!